WHAT THE FUCK!?

Dont know what to say. Dont know where to begin.

Everythings spiralling out of control. I touched stuff for the first time. Im so anti it, but Ive just lost all me will to fight through it. The space I was in after it was amazing. Just pure calmness. No sadness. A stoned state. An attempt to forget my surroundings. I am going mad. Absolutely fucking mad.

Hes just fucking me up. Shes just fucking me up. WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU ALL FUCKING WANT?! SERIOUSLY! WHAT THE FUCK IS ALL OF YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM?!

Really what did I ever do to you people my family and gf to deserve the way you people treat me? Ive killed me for you all. Ive given every bit of personal glory up just to make you all happy! But what do I get in return?! Im not even allowed to fucking feel anything. Im not allowed to be angry or sad, or happy or anything!

You guys have killed me! JUST FUCKING DESTROYED ME!

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I open my eyes, I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how I can't remember why, I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain, And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Everybody's screaming, I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge, I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold, onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened, And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading awayI'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me