WHAT THE FUCK!?

Dont know what to say. Dont know where to begin.

Everythings spiralling out of control. I touched stuff for the first time. Im so anti it, but Ive just lost all me will to fight through it. The space I was in after it was amazing. Just pure calmness. No sadness. A stoned state. An attempt to forget my surroundings. I am going mad. Absolutely fucking mad.

Hes just fucking me up. Shes just fucking me up. WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU ALL FUCKING WANT?! SERIOUSLY! WHAT THE FUCK IS ALL OF YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM?!

Really what did I ever do to you people my family and gf to deserve the way you people treat me? Ive killed me for you all. Ive given every bit of personal glory up just to make you all happy! But what do I get in return?! Im not even allowed to fucking feel anything. Im not allowed to be angry or sad, or happy or anything!

You guys have killed me! JUST FUCKING DESTROYED ME!