Homies..

Man... M.Diddy on a blog.. whats the world comming to? It happens.. Owells...



Should i sit here and write like one idiot... those people that write as if its a shakespear script where every single ginormous word there is in the great dictionary of ours need to be included. Man.. seriously WTF!?! Ahh... nothing to take the tension over.. whats the point anyways? not as if anything great is going to be achieved by doing so.. I think im the coolest cat out on town.. i got a blog man! So whats a blog all about? honestly i think its just a place to share about whats happening.. maybe a way to record down all the happenings in your life, in a form that will never be lost.



So ladies and gentlemens.... tell me this. Actually wait.. theres nothing to tell me as i dont have a question to pose. However please tell me things. Now i want to say this. Life.. it sucks major vagina.. Please pardon my french here. Im just completely up to my neck with all the crap that keeps happening. I seriously give life a real hot go hey.. like honestly mate i do. I just dont know how to quit. My never say die attitude has got me soo far.. But how long am i suppose to withstand all this bullshit. Question: When a girl says she wants to be with you and wants to marry you and have your seven kids what does it mean? Well an idiot like me would be like really well thats really nice and i feel the same way about you too.. then the next day you get slapped in your face cus she has to think things through or some shit.. Really is it that hard? make a decision and stick to it. And the part that shits me is, i cant walk away, if she says now that she dont want it forever id be completely devastated. But its not fair on anyone to tell her that.. as no one wants to be in a relationship when it starts because its a comprimise. AGH!!! so damn fustrating!!!! seriously!!! So what do you do.. if you stay you keep getting hurt to the point that all you do is cry.. if you leave you might as well commit suicide. Tough scenario.. trust me.



You see if thats all the worries in the world then the world would be a simple place to live in. However thats only a tiny singular aspect of anyones life. Bills still need to be paid if shes there or not. Life still goes on. Interesting situation actually. Nothing to take too much to the tension about. I dont think white hairs suit me, so id be best advise to cut out the tensioning. Im having chest pains now.. you see a heart attack about 1 month ago now has led to constant angina's. You cant tell anyone that as it draws attention to yourself, and sooner or later everyone will get fed up with it. Tough situation.. but nothing to take too much to the tension to. I mean seriously if i were to drop dead then im dead. Theres no great science to it. No point telling anyone that knows you and adding more problems then there already are. You never know they might even turn around and tell you that hey your just using the sympathy card. Maybe i am.. but i really want to be pampered right now. Ive been going through every single thing in life alone, and its time someone stood by me. I really need it, I really want it. Why is it that im soo willing to give up my happiness just to make the world happy, yet not one single person in the entire world is willing to give up a tiny bit just to make me happy. This is a case of One for all...All for none! Im soo whiny!! woah! but i dont care. Not today. Please allow me to whine. Allow me to tell the world that i feel like absolute cow dung right about now.



"did you know i missed you..My Konstantine"